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too much time has passed.. but too late to make it work

"They met..but the timing is not right.

He has his reasons and she has hers.

They're both confused so they decided to part ways.

She wants him to wait..he said he will..whatever it takes.

Years later, they saw each other again..

..But too much time has passed..

..Too late to make it work.

Lesson?

People change so does the heart. Seize the moment.

For in truth...

NObody waits forever."

*a quote from one of my girlfriends in CEU.. haii. ang lungkot ng quote. ka-praning.*

hardest THINGS in life

1. Being questioned when you yourself don’t understand
2. Pretending to be innocent of what you know about
3. Trying to show you care
4. Trying to forget something you know you never will
5. Admitting you were wrong after you have been so insistent that you were right
6. Accepting the fact that you made a mistake
7. Debating with yourself
8. Knowing what’s wrong and what’s right
9. Growing up
10. Accepting the fact that some things are not meant to be
11. Trying to understand when you just can’t
12. Swallowing your pride when it has become too hard and too big to even gulp it down with water
13. Realizing that you have been tricked after you have given your whole trust
14. Realizing that you have taken the most important thing for granted
15. Parting with someone you’ve just learned to love
16. Letting GO of someone you’ve loved all your life
17. Losing someone you care deeply about
18. Saying sorry when you mean it where you stand
19. Knowing what is best and yet doing the exact opposite.
20. Bracing yourself for the worst kind of pain… & still hurting so much..
21. Loving someone too much and learning to love the pain that goes with it…that even if you learned to let go of the person… you still go on missing the pain you once felt.. and there it goes… you fall again
22. Denying to yourself that you’re falling… then finally you realize that indeed you have fallen when it’s too damn late and he or she got tired of waiting…
23. Being with someone else when the right one comes along
24. Knowing deep inside that you love someone yet you can’t say it out loud
25. Flashing your smile to someone u don’t want to see.
26. Bringing back the feeling you’ve learned to forget.
27. Showing that u care.
28. Finding a way to mend a broken heart.
29. Learning that someone u truly loves has used you.
30. Saying “I love you” when you mean it and when you don't
31. Letting go of a person you’ve just learned to love.
32. Realizing that u love somebody you’ve just taken for granted.
33. Realizing that u love the person you’ve just broken up with
34. Waiting for promises you know she or he’ll never keep.
35. Saying your love for someone who loves somebody else.
36. Reminiscing the good times u shared together.
37. Shielding your heart to love somebody.
38. Trying to hide what u really feel.
39. Having a commitment with someone that u know would not last.
40. Trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from your eyes.
41. Sharing the one you love with someone else.
42. Loving a person too much.
43. Giving up someone u never thought of giving up.
44. Falling in love for the first time
45. Loving someone you haven’t seen
46. Having the right love at the wrong time.
47. Exerting effort to make the relationship last or work.
48. Not being appreciated when u know you’ve given your best.
49. Taking the risk to fall in love again.
50. Hiding your relationship from someone else.
51. Controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a friend
52. Choosing between 2 persons whom u really love.
53. Finding out that u can never have the person u just let go of back
54. Seeing the person u love with someone else
55. Learning that the person who claimed to have loved you so much never really cared
56. Seeing the one you love fall for someone else
57. Falling for your best friend and knowing that things can never be the same again
58. Learning to trust after you have been burned
59. Accepting that it was not meant to be
60. Smiling when all you want to do is cry
61. Falling and knowing that it can never be
62. Not being able to love the person who truly cares for you
63. Saying that you can never love a person the way he loves you
67. Hearing that he/she can never love you the way that you love her or him
68. Saying that you are over someone you still love
69. Being friends again and learning to let go of each other coz you both know it is better that way
70. Convincing one self that you are not in love when you know that you are
71. Having to let go because you know that he deserves someone else
72. Trying not to remember how perfect everything used to be
73. Being the last to know about something that concerns you most of all.

*i got this from aima's multiply and she got this from ust's multiply. haha! copy paste lan, dude! but i edited this..made some emphasis. yung mga nkafont color n green ung sapul.*

you and me - lifehouse

* a song when you're kind of in love(?).

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause there's you and me and all
other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And there's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't
keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want
to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause there's you and me and all of
the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And there's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't
keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause there's you and me and all other
people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off
of you and me and all other
people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And there's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't
keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

1st blog ng 'o8

18 naun, birthday ng officer cung c ma'am g4. ganda talaga ng dimples nya. debut nya naun..ininvite nya kme pro d kme nkpunta. *awwts* ngcotillion kea xa..?

ok, tong isa amn. ung chai cu, miss cu n xbra. halos naiicp cu xa lgi.. xe halos la kmeng communication.. nkkloka p ung frnstr nya..kun ano2 pnagllagay. kmusta amn? it bothers me. gs2 cu n tlga xang umuwe.

UP amn, unexpected tlg un. buong kala cu s ceu n cu this nxt S.Y. pro ndi..di acu mkpniwala nun una cung mkita ang npkganda cung name..haha..s result. inulit ulit cu p ung pgcheck pra mlamn cu kun nglloko lan b internet nmin o ndi..Thank You, Lord! waah!

tas tong nnai cu, ng-iba ihip ng hangin..una kht dw n mkpasa cu ng UP pro Los Banos/ any provincial cmpus, d p rn dw acu dun mg-aaral. malayo dw sknya. tas naun, ok n sknya..pro dun dw kme ttira..hmm...

2nd CAdT day for the 3rd Qtr.

                                                                                  11/o9/o7

Yey! Nkpgserve kme ult for school.. OLOPSC just started its countdown to Pearl Jubilee. Asar lan s bandang huli. Kun mhhmatay lan dn acu ng mga ilang min b4 mtpos ung program, edi sna tnapos n mna ng physical condition cu ung program n un bgo nanyari un. tae! Anoh kea itsura cu nun!

Pro I thank God xe pdeng mtpos n buhai cu nun mga time n un xe s gilid ng slanting sidewalk kme ng kbud'z cu nka-take post.nktalikod s kalsada. eh aun, nang nanyari ung nnyari skn..pkalsada ung hulog cu dw. panu nlan pla kun meh ssakyang rumaragasa, edi durog acu. ahaha..tae! d cu ineexpect n skn p nnyari un. nun COCC time cu, nver nnyari skn ang mhimatay s training. hmp! kmaen nmn acu ng breakfast, d nmn acu ngjigs ng xbra2 nun morning n un, tas d rn nmn mainit nun xe mjo umuulan nun,..haiinacu! asar!

Bday celeb 4 our adviser

                                                                                11/o7/o7

well, successful ang pg-arte nmin. Npaiyak nmin c ma'am. Wish cung magrant ung wish nya n mgkbaby. Mhrap pla pg seaman ang asawa, mlau sau..haha..2lad ng itay cu s inai cu. haha..ayan..ngkabbaae 2loi ttay cu.haha..

God is everywhere.

                                                                              11/o5/o7

Nkpgmeeting kmeng cell group! Meh bago, Better Together nmn..kso d p tpos ng core cell cu ung Pdl. waah!

Ang ganda ng sharings ng mga pmunta..c chie, nparemind nya skn n God is everywhere tga. Seek Him first.

Tama! No amount of preachings, sermons, touching melodies, tear-triggering songs can change a person unless he is ready and willing to do so.

haii.

Lord, create in me a pure heart.

                                                                              11/o5/o7

Nkpgmeeting kmeng cell group! Meh bago, Better Together nmn..kso d p tpos ng core cell cu ung Pdl. waah!

Ang ganda ng sharings ng mga pmunta..c chie, nparemind nya skn n God is everywhere tga. Seek Him first.

Tama! No amount of preachings, sermons, touching melodies, tear-triggering songs can change a person unless he is ready and willing to do so.

haii.

Lord, create in me a pure heart.

hEart of woRsHip

When the music fades and all is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring something that's of worth
That will bless Your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
All about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the things I've made it
When it's all about You
All about You, Jesus

King of endless worth, no one could express
How much You deserve
Though I'm weak and poor, all I have is Yours
Every single breath

I miss PDL meetings. The Corpus Cristi. haii..nwei, this song is one of my favorite songs. Eto lgi cung knkanta s mind nun ngttrain p cu for cadt officer. Tas knanta cu rin toh nun pnkkanta kme isa isa nun pnhon ng foundation day ng olopsc.

Tas one time,, d p sumckat ung araw, nlagai acu s tapat ng classroom ng AOM. Waah! so creEpy! mg-isa lan acu dun! pro nlbanan cu ung takot xe meh mumu daw dun..aun, kanta lan acu ng kanta ng worship songs hbang nka-'tikas nga'. nkkgaan tga ng feeling..la cu pake kung snsbayan n pla cu ng mumu. haha..

rEwaRd

Father I didn't really know you
Mother you are so very far away from me
Hopeless birthdays made me cry
My heart kept saying: it's all right
Obviously that's how it was meant to be
Now I know
There was a reason for it all
And I am not lonely anymore
I got my reward
That's why I am loved
I have you
A lover and a friend
You are everything I need
You are the sun the air I breathe
Without you, life wouldn't be the same
Please never go away
And if you go then don't forget to take me with you
The love that I gave was used against me
Honesty seemed a foreign and old-fashioned word
Maybe I just don't understand
'cause i'm a stranger in this land
Even friends failed to make me feel at home
Now I know
There was a reason for it all...
Jestes moja nagroda
You are my reward

April 2006, my bestfriend informed me about this song. We were in her family's Revo when she wanted me to search the lyrics of this song. Lam nya xeng mkkrelate acu sa message ng song. I did search in the internet but i didn't find any. ewan cu b, ang corny d cu nkta. Kea tnamad n cu. Then on the night of July 9, 2oo6..naalala cu ung reward tas gniem cu un (sun p cu nun) kun cno mkkpgbgai skn. Wlang meh alam xcpt for 1 guy. xa p nmn ung pnkaimportanteng guy sakin nun mga panahon na un..ayi!! aun, tnxt nya skn un but b4 that eh meh d pgkkaintndhan kme nun..uhh..pgkbasa cu ng pgkabasa nun first line ng lyrics,, naiyak n cu. hmmp! tas llo p cu naiyak xe nhurt acu s snb ng guy cu aftr nyang naisend skn un.  xbra..prang ung time n un eh d nya lam mga pnagssbi nya skn. xbra cu nhurt. huhu tga. nwei, after 1 day ata, ngxori nmn xa skn. nbgla lan dw xa..haii. aun.